one step forward and two steps back
life is like a hurricane...
being a kid is all i want to be right now. haha so much for ndp vid showing a kid that wants to grow up. we just miss whatever we cannot take back. whatever we cannot do twice.
this is one life im living and one life i will live.
there just isnt a 2nd chance for everything...
it's really a cold place outside the comfort of home.
maybe tts why im having apprehensions and doubts about going overseas to pursue my studies, its almost equivalent to just leaving all behind and starting a brand new life. family, friends. i dont know if im able to leave it just like that. okay maybe not friends, but family?
these weeks in army, im just starting to learn more about my platoon people. perhaps its because i dont feel empowered hence i didnt bother understanding them in the first place. but now that i know, i just find it awkward to strike up a convo or to even continue a convo with them. at least well, a couple still remain fine to talk to. most others really have 2 sides to them.
i guess, if anything, i found out that im the kinda person who finds motivation from empowerment. and it's easier for me to motivate myself when im given an appointment compared to having to work my way to the appointment in the first place.
now, i just hope i can prepare myself mentally to go overseas for that period of time. its long.
ciao.