perhaps its the regimentation and discipline that we have to uphold in camp that makes me feel confined, but its the army and well, i guess traditions are hard to change. somehow though, i think that perhaps this strict regimentation should be kept to in the recruit days, after the pop, perhaps a less clear line should be drawn btwn ranks. it may come with cons, certainly, but i do think that it would be easier for the men to communicate their thoughts to the commanders and perhaps even improve the system.

haha enuf abt army..

applying for course tmw. sigh, i should have studied... 2As just will make life harder when applying for uni, its funny how everyone around me says "sure get in" but im the only one who knows that it is risky with just 2As and entry is almost certainly academic based.

i just hope the scholarship would boost my entry chances.

looking back on the last 18 years of schooling, and looking currently at a 2year pause in education, i must say as cliche as it sounds, that i miss school life. the stuff that we do, events that we organize and all. school wasnt really just about acads to me, in fact it never was, haha. and i must say i never regretted any one bit of time that i could have, and should have devoted to studying. because i know i would rather have memories to treasure down the years then to just remember school as a place where i buried my face in books (facebook) everyday.

now in the army, at elast i got some good relations with some of my mates. it doesnt matter if i hate 35/40 people. what matters to me is that at least i know i have people to get me through tough times. and well, humans really have to go thru shit to realize how important certain relationships are. being appreciative without going thru shit just wont make the cut.

sigh.