im truly not an academic. haha i'd so prefer to be out in the open, and not confined. while sometimes being at home is indeed peaceful, more often than not, it's always as if some part of me would long and yearn to step out of house. of course that is a trait that i'll have to keep in check, or my pocket would have a big hole in it before long. haha
i guess this holidays have been one of the most eventful holidays i ever had in many years. more eventful than perhaps even on years where i go overseas. i guess i am finally understanding the meaning of the word "maximizing one's life". doing the things we want to do, and feeling a sense of satisfaction and gratification from it. surely there's nothing better in this world than that. for the first time, the things i do are not compelled or instigated by people around me or by circumstances. i can more or less say that i throughly enjoyed the events i had on in december and for january. and haha im content with myself for that (:
army's coming soon! excited yet apprehensive at the same time? not sure what to expect. people seem to be doing fine in army so i guess it should be okay. haha need to catch up with some of them soon! (:
also, on a separate note, sudden realization that after december 30th, i'm kinda finally officially putting down band. mixed feelings, sad/happy at the same time. the 6yrs were filled with both regrets and triumphs. i cant say that i've not enjoyed it, yet if i were to be honest, i cant say that it's the best thing that happened to me so far. there were better things certainly. but i guess i can say band had been one hell of a rollercoaster ride, albeit mostly in the darkness. sometimes, it's akin to the thrill and exhilaration of going down so quickly yet for a fair bit of time, it was as boring as slowly going up the slope. then there's always the suspense where u wont know when you'll start going down again! that's band. haha a love-hate relationship. thanks to those who've put up with my constant nonsense and what not. thanks to all my exco members. thanks to the wonderful juniors i had. thanks to other musical group ccals who were my best company whenever there's stuff to rant abt, i.e. syf and like how mg are under-represented/recognized. haha i'll miss band. surely. but i guess it's time to find another interest of mine. haha bye to my 3 wives who each lasted 2 years. should have named y'all.. damnn xD and bye to all the members! haha. just see who i've played for/in for the past 6 years.. RIMB, RJCSB/RSB haha, RISE (for a couple of pracs), raffles chorale, RWinds :D haha really, this trip was made wonderful by y'all. so now i think, i'll close a chapter of my life (: and am i glad it ended on a high note :D <3
so i guess that practically summarizes my 2mths of hols and what occupied most of my life in 6yrs. of coz i could talk abt more.. but let's not get too sentimental here! surely u can put together my journey if you would go read the archives... ahaha
so what's next? army! and my only chance to fulfill my biggest wish yet. medicine. haha well. i've got one try which i'm gonna give my all. (: i've never wanted anything so badly before haha and i can still remember the ccal camp speaker and i quote him, "When you really want something, the entire universe will conspire to fulfill your desire" haha not the exact phrasing, but i guess the gist and meaning is there!
so well, that's it. haha havent had that long a post in a while.. back to sat's mugging and reading books (:
life's finally got a meaning.
