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mneo
7:30 PM
Saturday, January 30, 2010
How easy it is to remember someone for what he had done wrong. how hard to remember what he had done right.
see the goodness in people. perhaps the world would be a better place then. (:
harp on the strengths of your teammates more than their weaknesses. then the job may be done faster and better. as much as you scold someone for things they do wrong, don't forget to compliment them for things they do right.
ever experienced how when u get 98/100, first thing ur mom says is what happened to that 2 marks and scolds u for being careless? i think, a better mom would have complimented you on getting 98/100 instead of harping on the 2 marks.
after all, nobody's perfect. the more you try to be perfect, the more of a nobody you become.
6:47 PM
Friday, January 29, 2010
u know the old saying goes
当局者迷，旁观者清。
but have u ever felt this way
当局者请，旁观者迷。
or
no one is as clear about the whole event as compared to you.
but i guess that's what matters isn't it. your conscience is clear and you know full well the outcomes and the consequences if there are any. so even if the whole world is against you, if you think what you're doing is what you want to do or if you think you're not in the wrong anywhere whatsoever, just do it. of course thinking you're not in the wrong seems easy enough when you're deluding yourself, so do make sure you're really NOT in the wrong.
on another note, it's quite surprising how fast people misinterpret your actions. from something vague, they can jump straight to conclusions and start questioning you about it. when you havent the faintest idea what did you do wrong.
you know, sometimes when life gives me lemons, oh how i wish i could take the lemons and squeeze the juices straight into the eyes of those around me. maybe it'll help them see clearer.
a great start to a great weekend. ironically my last weekend before ns. <3
GP compre qn 1.
from the last line, suggest the author's tone towards his life.
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6:54 AM
Thursday, January 21, 2010
4 days of camp! man haha at last i get to be a pseudo psl.. it was a throughly enriching experience, not to mention a real fun one too! haha 1E2 is some bombz class. totally can see them become great people in the future. the only regret i had was that i didnt get to do a proper debrief today before they went home, rather no one did. so yeah, perhaps sth that can be improved on in the programme i guess. haha
taking charge of them just makes the sec 1 days come back.. fun, innocent, with 99% of the world still unexplored. haha now the world is just like, half cold, half practical, half pragmatic, half of all the crap that never existed when we were younger. haha perhaps naivety is not a bad thing after all eh.. haha.
they so nice, haha you cant bear to shout at them.. interestingly, they never will really climb over ur head. they know when to be serious, when to be quick, when to relax, when to be talkative. unlike other classes xD haha how can u bear to shout at such kids!
but the best part was when they wrote a card with like me and des "good" attributes on it haha touching sia!! :D and asked me to watch their skit tmw, which unfortunately i cant go ): sighz. oh well! life's tough sometimes.. and on a random note, some of them happen to be my cousin's frens o.O and one of them may be tat wai sis! o.O
it's a small world after all..
tell me that the "it's a small world" song wasnt playing in ur head..
=D
great fun great fun! 1E2 <3!
5:26 AM
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
new playlist (: oldies <3!
on the other hand, the first song you'll listen to is posted below, i think its a great song. dedicated to the unsung heroes in our lives. those people who just helped us here and there and are often there whenever they are needed. surely there must be people like that in your life. well, it's one of the few songs with meaningful lyrics (: pls do enjoy! and the singer is well, awesome.
reminds me of quite a few people i guess (: thanks to all of you, for being the wind beneath my wings (:
love ya!
2:00 AM
work is tiring. period. well at least what i'm doing is tiring, maybe i found it extra tiring because it's something which i dont enjoy doing.. it's like and as if i'm doing things which other people do not want to do, the so-called, saigang/dirty work/time wasters etc. and yet it is part of the corporate ladder which i'm supposed to climb. so i shldnt complain, but i cant help but think what am i doing here when i could have made better use of my time reading a book or studying for sats. then when i come back, i'm already tired and not in the optimum studying mood. but nvm, at least i get to see more of the profession i like, so hopefully, i can weigh the pros and cons of the profession more easily in time to come.
on the other hand, the TKGS sch camp was fun, tho i found myself at a complete loss on how to debrief a team after an activity. Perhaps it's because I dont listen to such debriefs myself. find it a complete waste of time.now i understand how tiring it can be to get the attention of people. but the children were nice, they taught me lessons on teamwork, which ironically i'm supposed to teach them.
tired, shall nap 30mins and hope flu goes away.
bye
6:19 AM
Friday, January 15, 2010
i resolve to:
1. keep an account of my daily expenses! i created this cool spreadsheet! hhaha okay its like basic excel but wtheck, it's my first spreadsheet :D hahaha so im proud of it :D
2. plan my schedule like a professional :D and know my schedule! so nthing clashes :D
thats all :D life rocks nowadays! haha why cant studying be liddat ):
6:27 AM
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
no idea how to embed this. but it sure brings back some good times.
i think recently i've like thought a bit about one of the problems thats been bugging me for a long time. and i've come to a small conclusion! well not the full conclusion since that question isnt meant to have a definite answer but one that evolves with time? haha i mean the question is "who am i" so u cant be just one person ur whole life right? so there's no definite answer per se!
but anw. yep i come to 2 small little conclusions. since my hols were quite eventful, i must say it sorta opened my eyes to see myself deeper. i guess the first conclusion i have can be aptly summarized by this statement.. it's like the intel slogan. "i'm kinda extroverted on the outside but introverted on the inside".. to put it in a different way, its kinda how i know people a lot more compared to how much people know about me. it's how people can open up to me but i cant really open up to anyone. yeah i rant and rave and bitch but i dont tell just anyone my real problems. and maybe not anyone at all. so after years with some friends, they dont know me as well as i know them? yeah thats my first conclusion. haha
2nd. i think its fated for me to love rather than to be loved. haha unfortunate or not is for me to find out in due time. i just feel that i cant cherish any love that is given to me? or maybe it's because i never received love before? well the latter seems impossible unless my mom/dad/bro hates me. so well maybe i just cant cherish/reciprocate love. or maybe i dont want to. but that is for me to conclude another time too!
so these 2 small small conclusions. haha and i think the 2 attachments i've been doing makes me wanna do medicine more.. i really cant stand admin work. i mean i can stand and watch an operation for 12hrs and not feel tired but the moment i start admin work i just crash and burn. hahaha medicine? haha pharmacy seems less of an option now. not that i dont like it. just that there's a shit load of admin >> medicine admin.. unless i become a clinical pharmacist. i mean i just want to be in healthcare and not admin healthcare. the interactive healthcare with patients, hands-on and everything but admin hahahaha
well i shall give it more thought.. for now.. sats ):
2:20 AM
Sunday, January 10, 2010
im truly not an academic. haha i'd so prefer to be out in the open, and not confined. while sometimes being at home is indeed peaceful, more often than not, it's always as if some part of me would long and yearn to step out of house. of course that is a trait that i'll have to keep in check, or my pocket would have a big hole in it before long. haha
i guess this holidays have been one of the most eventful holidays i ever had in many years. more eventful than perhaps even on years where i go overseas. i guess i am finally understanding the meaning of the word "maximizing one's life". doing the things we want to do, and feeling a sense of satisfaction and gratification from it. surely there's nothing better in this world than that. for the first time, the things i do are not compelled or instigated by people around me or by circumstances. i can more or less say that i throughly enjoyed the events i had on in december and for january. and haha im content with myself for that (:
army's coming soon! excited yet apprehensive at the same time? not sure what to expect. people seem to be doing fine in army so i guess it should be okay. haha need to catch up with some of them soon! (:
also, on a separate note, sudden realization that after december 30th, i'm kinda finally officially putting down band. mixed feelings, sad/happy at the same time. the 6yrs were filled with both regrets and triumphs. i cant say that i've not enjoyed it, yet if i were to be honest, i cant say that it's the best thing that happened to me so far. there were better things certainly. but i guess i can say band had been one hell of a rollercoaster ride, albeit mostly in the darkness. sometimes, it's akin to the thrill and exhilaration of going down so quickly yet for a fair bit of time, it was as boring as slowly going up the slope. then there's always the suspense where u wont know when you'll start going down again! that's band. haha a love-hate relationship. thanks to those who've put up with my constant nonsense and what not. thanks to all my exco members. thanks to the wonderful juniors i had. thanks to other musical group ccals who were my best company whenever there's stuff to rant abt, i.e. syf and like how mg are under-represented/recognized. haha i'll miss band. surely. but i guess it's time to find another interest of mine. haha bye to my 3 wives who each lasted 2 years. should have named y'all.. damnn xD and bye to all the members! haha. just see who i've played for/in for the past 6 years.. RIMB, RJCSB/RSB haha, RISE (for a couple of pracs), raffles chorale, RWinds :D haha really, this trip was made wonderful by y'all. so now i think, i'll close a chapter of my life (: and am i glad it ended on a high note :D <3
so i guess that practically summarizes my 2mths of hols and what occupied most of my life in 6yrs. of coz i could talk abt more.. but let's not get too sentimental here! surely u can put together my journey if you would go read the archives... ahaha
so what's next? army! and my only chance to fulfill my biggest wish yet. medicine. haha well. i've got one try which i'm gonna give my all. (: i've never wanted anything so badly before haha and i can still remember the ccal camp speaker and i quote him, "When you really want something, the entire universe will conspire to fulfill your desire" haha not the exact phrasing, but i guess the gist and meaning is there!
so well, that's it. haha havent had that long a post in a while.. back to sat's mugging and reading books (:
life's finally got a meaning.
9:15 AM
Monday, January 4, 2010
Hey Dad look at me Think back and talk to me Did I grow up according To plan? Do you think I'm wasting My time doing things I Wanna do? But it hurts when you Disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I'm never gonna be good Enough for you I can't pretend that I'm alright And you can't change me
Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be Perfect Now it's just too late And we can't go back I'm sorry I can't be Perfect
I try not to think About the pain I feel inside Did you know you used to be My hero? All the days You spent with me Now seem so far away And it feels like you don't Care anymore
dedicated to those who are trying to lead a life they want to lead, but fate has them placed in a life they dont want to lead. and to those who are still trying to do their best in that situation. i salute you
5:03 AM
Saturday, January 2, 2010
this brings back memories (:
wonder if it's still in use..
7:40 AM
Friday, January 1, 2010
I've been through the dark side too.
but what can i do?
i'll try to understand. try to see it from your pov.
i'm at a loss. for the first time in quite a while now
