why the sudden coldness? its overbearing, yet i cant think of a reason why. first thought that came to mind was myself, but i see no wrong in what i did, then i turned to recent events and i could still find no clue as to the sudden change in attitude.

maybe it was something i did that i did not know. it beats me. but i can say for sure that as far as i can recall, i never did anything that i would have seen as a wrongdoing on my part. i'm just not used to it. bubbly one second and the next? it's like having a door suddenly slam shut in your face.

drifting apart i told myself, is inevitable. but shouldnt it happen gradually instead of suddenly? it's like considering someone your best friend and surely you'll expect more then just a sudden silent goodbye.

perhaps, i should just focus on things closer to home.

so much for emotional attachment. now i know it's but just lies and those whom i hold close are easily swayed by the words of others or rumours.

yet i seek to find the truth which will prove me wrong and things will once again return to normal. maybe it's good that it happens now. then attention can be diverted away to a more productive cause.

its time perhaps, to just stick to your own values and screw the rest of the world dude. i have no need to conform to this current shitty society.

95 more days. and then i'll be gone for good, if that's what you're wishing for.

misplaced trust.
misunderstood.
intentions good.