just a few days more.

school's already over, well not officially, but yeah the feeling's there. term 3 for J2's is also almost officially over, after all, friday is the only day that is *prelims free*. 2 years have just flown by so fast. i cant say RJ has been a cold place like what most seniors said. true, it may not be as warm as i would have liked it to be, but it still gives that sunken feeling that school is almost officially over. nxt year would be ns, books just disappear, abruptly. there's not even a phase for u to like slowly pull out. after 12 years of education, school is like a drug that u just cant stop using. the withdrawal symptoms are just way too great.

way too great.

today, while taking a break from studying, i just thought, why is it that the *mugging* madness seemed to just pull everything out of life. my days are now literally studying my ass off. it's just such a stark contrast. no after school lolling around sessions or just sitting in the canteen for 15mins to have a chit chat. i'm real grateful to talk to people once in a while or i'll just lose my sanity over studying.

then i thought back over the recent years in my life and was going through certain events. events that would always have that vivid imagery in my head. the tears, the late nights up doing all sorts of things. the civil wars (no prizes for guessing), the 2hr long chit chat sessions where the topic ranged from the prettiest girls in school to discussing social issues. i just wondered, after looking around me, why all these fun was suddenly zapped out of life.

and i still cant find the answer.

after 2 years, i dun really miss a lot of things, but the things that i miss, i really do miss.

i miss wed and saturdays.
i miss holding something which i had infused part of myself into
i miss that adrenaline rush. that rush of blood to the head.
i miss turning right and left to talk, sometimes to be met with a cool response.
i miss those friday afternoons.
i miss that i'm-going-to-be-strangled uniform
i miss the times where we were higher than 7th heaven and we were at the top of the eight.
i miss...
you
you
you
you
but you probably wont guess who.

back to prelims.
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