some things just popped in my head

1st time im bloggin twice in a day?

1st time i practiced qns in this mth of mugging

1st time i have so many things weighing on my mind

1st time im unsure on how to tackle the problems that i face

1st time i feel like lying down in the open with my hands behind my head and sorting out everything

1st time i feel a sense of mistrust coming from some people

1st time i try to make others perceive me as who i am but it failed.

1st time i see so much misinterpretation happening in front of my eyes

1st time i'm worried abt so many things at the same time

1st time im studying so much for an exam

1st time im not confident abt some of the things im doing

1st time i feel slightly pissed off this year abt certain things

1st time i feel i failed at being a leader

well, it's the night of firsts. and this won't be the only night.

its hard to make people perceive you as you are.

am i allowed to be who i am? can i show who i really am? do i know who i am?

some things are meant to be shown, others are not. if everyone can be who they are, well life won't be so complicated won't it?

and i bet 99% of whoever reads this will misinterpret at least 1 sentence.

so am i allowed to express what i think openly?

trying to be more open abt how i feel abt certain things. but i'm afraid of the consequences.

trying to make myself believe that im doing things right. but i'm afraid that i'm not in reality

sometimes i don't mean what i say, sometimes i don't say what i mean. but who can tell when i'm doing what?

i'm complicated.