i sense sth brewing in me this few days

want to say it here

but then again i cant

coz i don't know how to put it.

i shld really stop this facade of acting happy when im not.

u know, when all ur frens tell u they'll be there for you. it's a harder choice to make

who shld u tell?

who can you approach?

there's a few, so few its less then 5.

and out of those <5, theres like <3 whom are ALWAYS there.

well now the tough part is

who out of the <3?

a b or c?

i'm still trying to figure that out. for telling one might hurt the other 2.

there's one reason why i go out at night alone.

going out at night to me is just to let go of all the things u have on ur mind, i mean those that bothers u, frustrates u and what not.

i went out a few nights in a row, well those things just seem to be neverending i guess.

perhaps i've been to naive, to me the only reason why i'm a *nice* guy to certain people is because i have a high tolerance level. of course if someone talks to u, and u decide to brush them off, you wont exactly be a nice guy right?

i've really wanted to say some things to some people some times, too bad society doesnt allow me to say it, coz the consequences are dire. maybe i should really try u know, see how bad it can get. i mean what's the worst?

i dunno, i've just not been myself these few days, but then again, what is myself? who do i want to show myself as?

who can i trust 100%?

tmw will be a better day
or so.