there's a fine line between many things, most of the time, even that fine line is blurred, such that you don't know you've crossed it till you crossed it. i'm sure there's quite a few things i've crossed, most of the time i know i'm crossing it yet i still want to cross it. and in the process, making people pissed, making people lose faith in me.

sometimes i ask myself why cross it if you know the consequence, most of the time, i end up without an answer. it's just the feeling of wanting to know how the consequence would be like. wanting to test unknown waters. well it's both good and bad. of course if the consequence is too great, testing unknown waters will be a disaster, but then again, when is too great, too great?

there's some things i've said in my life that i know i didnt mean it, but i still said it. some things i've done which i know it wasnt the right time to do yet i did it. some things that i'm thinking of doing, and i've already weighed out the consequences, im nt sure whether i shld carry it out. coz most of it involves people being directly hurt, and it hurts me as well.

i guess now, i'll have to set a line where i will not cross no matter what and this line will nt be blurred one bit. time for me to learn to make decisions which dun hurt, might not benefit, but at least no one gets involved in it negatively.

had a talk abt band, looking at band in an honest light, isnt exactly comforting. but im doing a resolution now, that no matter what, for the year that we're in *office*. this will be one band that will never succumb to pressure, never complain abt practice, never compromise on musical standard, and never never be individualistic. sounds optimistic? yeah it's going to be one hell of a journey to get these 4 things done well, but i'll put in my best effort, risk drowning in the water, so long as we all enjoy band, there's nothing i'm willing to do that isnt worth it. nothing.

for now, i guess i'll have to take into more serious consideration the consequences, before i decide.

i'm glad you trust me. and i trust you too.
for without trust, we would have been no more then just strangers.

for you =)