lol mom and dad pmsing today.

came bak home at 1020, stood outside the window, saw them quarreling, and for 2 mins, i was invisible. nt that i was visible before anyway... den i called out hello and somehow in the midst of an argument, they can actually smile. but of course, there's nth sincere abt that smile.

i mean the 1st thing i told my mom was, tmw got class outing, den she said why u go out wif ur class so many times? (in a way that makes it sound as if i went out wif the class everyday) i told her as far as i recall, i went out wif our class twice this whole yr lol? den i got that erm stare that suggested i was talking back to her and i decided to drop it and let her win as usual.

so aft that i went to bathe, she said, go eat the papaya and don't leave it out there. like as if it was me who actually put it there? she started scolding me abt leaving the plate there and i was all ready to just shout bak. budden lol i don't benefit so again i let her win

sighz i really hate it when people blame you for things you never ever did? furthermore its my parents, perhaps im really invisible to them. they can tell what i do anytime, but they cant tell my character, cant tell my personality. i wonder if all that i did to change to suit them was actually worth it. bloody hell, i tolerated lots of stupid shit crap scoldings i got for things i never did, and its ALWAYS after a quarrel between them. i never see my bro getting scolded, nt when his bed is 10000 times messier then mine. i reach home, everything is brother brother brother, i dun hear my name mentioned once. its sms me when ur bro gets home, ask ur bro what he want to eat, ask ur bro whether he going out, ask ur bro this and that. knn i dont fking exist la.

tts nt all, its always if your bro hungry, go buy food for him. and its MY POCKET money dammit. wtf la he's 2 yrs older then me, cant he do things himself? i duno why everyone in my family worships him just coz he currently holds the best A lvl results in the whole family tho he and I are perhaps the only ones who know it's a screwed up result. now i dunno whether i love/hate my bro. he's the only one in the fam i talk to, but its coz of him tat i dun get recognized, for now, i still love him. at least he asks abt me when im nt at home. nt like people who are supposed to know you coz they are ur parents.

sighz i've gotten what i wanted to say off my mind. blogs rock. go blogspot. dammit life is fked up.
and i swore to cut down swearing. fk the world la.

for all the ppl who undergo fked up moments wif ur family <3